IT'S BIGGS!

(EDITTED.)

i haven't noticed, this is already my 216th post. gee..

it is really hard for a person to pretend that eventually his/her relationship with someone whom he/she only sees as a friend could turn out into something more... it is hard to fight back the feelings rising, the excitement whenever he/she's around, even the longing of your phone to beep whenever he/she sends a message. i have been into that situation before, a one-sided love hoping to be responded by somebody i like, hoping that someday the world would rotate to my own luck.

but today it was a different kind of story.

i know its hard to ignore the feeling, but somebody did it for me. but then i felt bad for ignoring also the whole me, as if i have a disease. but now i understand why he has to do it. but as you see, there are some things that isn't permitted, even if you push for it. so i say... thanks for seeing me at the other light. i really appreciated it.


thanks also to miss jimenez for tonight. naks!

because Travel & Leisure magazines were like sold out in cubao, i decided to go to greenbelt to find one. luckily my friend rayjohn was in search of Team Manila shirts in powerplant... and the rest was history...

as it was said on my title entry, we first went to rockwell to look for the shirt rayjohn was craving at. he got so overwhelmed that he actually didn't buy it! we hired a taxi to get into greenbelt but unfortunately we haven't found any bookstore nearby to see any magazine. i suddenly thought of Goodwill bookstore at Glorietta. so after Greenbelt we went through the overpass, passed the Landmark exit and enter Glorietta. still no trace of that... uh mag until we saw national bookstore having one. Jeezzus.

after buying and accomplishing my goal, we went on window shopping. still wanted to buy a shirt for his own, rayjohn brought me to different boutiques. i really got almost crazy! now i believe not all women are shopaholics! guys like my friend here really drives me and fills pain in my feet. hahaha.

i don't have any single plans on buying anything but one thing made me buy one is a leather-type spiral ring that costs me err... (i don't wanna tell because for me its too expensive for a ring!) bucks. hehe. but as we move along i started to appreciate and erase the regret in my mind and finally accept the fact that i actually like it. as rayjohn's motto said, "hindi mo naman yan bibilhin kung hindi mo gusto, diba?" rock on dude!

there. at last after 2 hours of strolling and searching for his "soulmate", rayjohn finally settled down on a choco brown polo he saw on Solo. and because last saturday he treated me at the gateway mall, a while ago i owe him a treat so i treated him at kenny rogers at G2. we even saw an ex-blockmate of mine with her elders. nah... she's quite an eyesore for me. and so with him. guess who...

after eating by past nine already, i bought an errand from my mom as rayjohn was getting our tickets to MRT and then went home... man, it was really a tiring day but i enjoyed it. it has been ? years since we have gone out finding nothing. hahaha! hey! at least i have found one, eh?

i'm going to bed now.

Your Birthdate: July 24

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist. A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around. You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you. You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people. Your strength: Your devotion Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness Your power color: Lilac Your power symbol: Heart Your power month: June

someone's bugging me lately. maybe i am beginning to be the cause of another rising of feeling--that needs to destroy as soon as possible. i don't like being one. most especially if one important thing's being ruined after all the mess. i hope it wasn't me. maybe i was just overreacting and paranoid... say, if you are the one avoiding all along without any reason at all what would you actually think? unless you did something very nasty right?

maybe i should ask some people about this. or maybe not. this is not my problem anymore... i just hate to feel being treated as if i don't care about somebody's feelings.


anyway my day went fine today. thanks to the one who is concerned. :)



to you: thanks for keeping up with my scattered self whenever i freak out with my stuff, for making me mad and then making up the easiest and the most serious way we could. thanks for enduring my tantrums of missing you, and for letting me hear your voice in those late night talks. thanks for the love, the friendship, the treats, for caring, sweetness--pare, sampung buwan na tayo, waw a.

hugs and kisses and... hahaha, shut up!
abbey

if you really want to see this entry, be patient. haha. i've uploaded lots of pics kasi. thanks!

i've been very busy (haha busy daw!) on leveling up my character in ragnarok. hehehe. i've got no more time on blogging and on y!m since i am savoring the last moments of my semestral break playing so much... i was supposed to post a month-ender entry last Oct 31st but then i felt the instant rush of playing! forgive me though, i missed that eversince things in school are getting tougher and tougher, well of course, being a junior college student. voila! so this is it!

like what i said a while ago this is supposed to be a month-ender entry but i realized i am generalizing the title to somewhat "sem-ender" thing. whew! i wanted to share all the activities i had--as in not all but mostly the things i did for the past 5 months of torture, excitement, happiness and fun!

(June 2006 - October 2006)



mesh with the fresh - UST College of Architecture aquaintance party



- happy experience! held at Metro Comedy bar in west Ave, QC! fun fun fun!


yours truly's 19th birthday



- hahaha, i got nice gifts too! (just look at my previous entry in july section ^^)

randomness pixx!

"heto ako woahooo... basang basa sa ulahaaan.."






these are some vanity pics before, during, and after the rain, the flood and the mess... go USTe!!


humanities humiliations! (as beng names it)

some are in video clip format but then i have this pics of ours in our drama and others.


ian's group in their song performance. astig!


pancit canton break muna!
(after rehearsing in our dance prformance. thanks to beng for that)


eyns, portraying a kid; beng, portraying the thirsty gal and
me, portraying the granny - complete with face aging haha!


mong, in their play he portrayed a soldier (i think? its an excerpt of disney's aladin)
and rex, of course portraying the gennie!


experiencing architecture - theory of architecture exhibit

haha, one factor i really need the 3-week vacation was this... it almost entirely kill us all... like what prof. equipaje said, "me mga nagkagalitan pa dyan, me nagkatampuhan for sure..."

the making:


the busy people (pero si eden naka-pose. hahaha)


the busy, wacky people (jp, rebo and rex) with our sociology prof,
sir Mark Aquino on the right. they were holding the pics of our classmates
as part of beng's group's work. hahaha kalog


eyns and i, doing our crap


the finished product (suspended bridge daw yan. hahaha)


the aftermaths: pix galore (i have uploaded some in my september entry i think.. here's more)


napakagulo nila. random pic. hehe and
an aftermath the next day during our BT class ^^ (gabo, tintin, me, jp and mong)


Ragnarok Philippine Championships 2006

have i mentioned that i went there? yup, here are some proofs: (the other pics are still in emman's cam and daryl have posted some for her own entry herself. check it out here.)



cosplayer kafras with daryl and her cousin (celebrity!)
cosplayers mistress and moonlight flower


the crowd! \m/


University of Santo Tomas Victory Party



beng and i, craving our shrimp tempura at tokyo-tokyo
in sm san lazaro.. hmm! OISHI KATTA!!




vainness (what a term!) of everybody (we are all required to wear yellow)



victory concert: marynor, beng (in her wowoweeeeee skirt) and i in the new colayco park



hindi kami naka-yellow no? haha (me, beng and kring)
chito of parokya ni edgar (atenista to a! hahaha) as the major guest
band of the night... (add ons: soapdish, callalilly, sophia, and kamikazee were there as well)


my cousin kuya aris' 26th birthday last October 28th



cute kami! ang umangal tutubuan ng kulugo sa kilikili!



the birthday dude himself, dividing his cake

(i haven't got any pics of our design 5 final plate oral defense because i forgot the digi at home. besides, who would want to pose a nervous face anyway? hahaha! but i know kring have some in her phone. maybe i'll just add it on.)


i am saying this again, this isn't all of the fun we had... for it is not all recorded nor posed for evidences: being happy is always soothing within our hearts and the best part of it is that the smiles formed on our lips isn't done on purpose... to hell and in those hell-er days, weeks and the whole sem, cheers!!

guys, see you in second sem! waaaaaa.. i'll definitely miss often-blogging so much...