comeback.

when i think of writing these reveries spinning on my head in my multiply blog, i suddenly thought of some place not too flashy and more private to express what i feel tonight. this site has been down for years and now, i stopped furnishing my thesis just to do the comeback. well for some may thought this 'comeback' of "re"-generating this site would be a sure, nice feeling like, hello-again-blogspot to count, this day...

...Biggs is depressed.

I was so down not because of the thesis work (anyway i became immune to it so i don't mind) but because of someone. I may be wrong in all perspective and was claimed guilty for it, but in some point i know i stood at the right decision. But then there creeps this feeling of being indecisive when it comes to what this person may actually feel. I was too down, so down that i want to scold myself, for being wrong and insensitive at the same time. I can't help but to cry for the things I've done, for the things i said half meant, and for all the gestures seemed to have made wronged the whole of me.

I felt really sad and alone right now... and there's no one i knew whom i can throw up these feelings except this good old blog container. I had nearly tire a person's whole being, so much that I myself wanted to free this person and stop from prolonging the patience and love given to me. I was so stubborn that i actually think of giving up.

I don't know what to do anymore... I want to rest, and maybe i hope i can find myself to become more better... if only i could say it...

name abbreviation? my name rocks =))

astig yun ah! gumawa din ako ng set namin ni... beng! beng, ginawa ko na ang para sa pangalan natin! hahahahaha! at sa lahat ng mga abigail hahahaha!

A - Loves to flirt but in a jokingly manner
B - Popular with all types of people.
I - LOVES TO LAUGH
G - Never let people tell you what to do.
A - Loves to flirt but in a jokingly manner
I - LOVES TO LAUGH
L - best smile

kapag BIGGS:

B: Popular with all types of people.
I: LOVES TO LAUGH
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
S: the best person anyone could have



as seen from:

A: Loves to flirt but in a jokingly manner
B: Popular with all types of people.
C: weird
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
E:Freaking beautiful
F: People wild and crazy adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: LOVES TO LAUGH
J: Freaking Rowdy
K: Really silly.
L: best smile
M: Makes dating fun
N: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for
O: Loved by everyone
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Great good kisser
S: the best person anyone could have
T: Good bf/gf!
U: Gets hugs
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: Is a freak when it comes to parties
Z: Lives life for fun

tagged again!!! - by geran

ANG RULES DAW E write 10 F.Y.I's about yourself then tag 8 people in your network..hehe sa inyong walo ang ndi gumawa kJ! :P branded na yan!wahahahaha..


at dahil uto-uto ako, sige papatulan ko na ang kasiyahan...

1. aside from rambutan, i seldom eat... apples. wala lang. hindi ako PRO sa quotation na, "an apple a day keeps the doctor away..." eh apple kaya has lot of caffeine content than coffee?! o well, not really an apple-enthusiast. pero sa ngayon i am learning to drink C2 apple... nawawala yung C2 green e. yeah.

2. whenever i hear the song "Close to You" by the carpenters, there's this annoying feeling [oo talaga] in me that eventually my eyes end up producing teardrops.

3. naging subject din ako ng lost and found when i was 6?... and my mom was really hysterically in search for me. yung as in grabe... buong neighborhood na ang nagpapanic pero ako nakikipaglaro sa classmate ko sa kabilang bahay. the weird thing is umabot na dun yung "search-for-the-lost-abby" brigade, and yet hindi sinabi ng papa ng classmate ko na nandun ako. kidnapper ba sya? haaaay... grabe talaga... and that's the first time i saw my mom cry...

4. i like the feeling of looking down the street, or anything below when as for me i am 6 feet higher or even higher pa than that [wag mo lang sana ako itulak]

5. i don't believe in the saying "practice makes perfect." haha... wala lang, i never learned to appreciate that quote.

6. i have a major phobia to spiders and... crabs. ask my brother dear about it... [grrr]

7. i'm used to DIARIES nung high school. yeah, yung notebook-notebook thingy, but minus the lock naman.. and my diary isn't the normal one. well, my diary is actually a living person, up to now... hehehe... she even replies to my entries back then and hindi pa uso ang blogging nun... hehehe... confused ka no? and vice-versa, i am THE DIARY of my own DIARY. hahaha. manigas ka sa confusion

8. haha, cge... fan ako ng sailormoon dati. hehehehe! yeah jc!!

9. believe it or not, i am a quiapo-goer every friday...

10. utang ko lahat ang kasiyahan at contentment sa buhay ngayon sa ragnarok. :)

20 people

Name 20 people you can think of right off the top of your head.
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people.
This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.
-Pass On-

1.albert
2.denis
3.geran
4.beng
5.madie
6.avon
7.tino
8.kuya aris
9.kendiff
10. rj abeto
11. tintin
12. eyns
13. marynor
14. CHRIS NG!
15. kring
16. emman
17. dar
18. rex
19. zarah
20. mong

How did you meet 3?
~haha, "self-proclaimed" the FUNNY-FAT-GUY, isnabero yan dati. inalok ng yellow paper nung 1st day ng klase hindi ba naman namansin?! hahahaha... pero kidding aside, we got really close during our P.E volleyball days. malupet yan!


- What would you do if number 2 and 6 were going out?
~ hahahahaha! di pede, taken na si #2 :)

- What do you know about number 8?
~ nagmamagic yan sa makati. joke.. hinde... malupet yan sa computer thingymajigs.. pinsan ko yan.

- What do you think of number 7?
~ haha, pancit canton ang buhok nyan! pag wala na yan makain huhugot nalang sa ulo nya! hahaha! hinde, kelangan na namin magresearch nito bukas! hasel!


- What would you do if 5 confessed he/she loves you?
~ i love her too! she's more than a best bud to me. parang kapatid ko na talaga to e!


- A fact about 9?
~ she's moving on. hahaha

- Who's going out with 1?
~ errr... kapag me iba pa lagot sya sakin [hahaha]

- What's 4 do for a living?
~ arkitekto sa umaga, paniki sa gabi!

- Where does 7 live?
~ sa retreat house! hahaha sa taytay... sa dorm... sa lupa... sa kaldero kapag kumulo na may sauce at seasoning na. time to eat! =))

- What do you like about number 1?
~ we feel the same affection...

- Do you miss number 2?
~ OO. miss the good old times... we're just hopeless romantics and bummers back then.

- What is your opinion of number 6?
~ d pa rin to nagbabago... kaya love ko to!

- What do you think about number 5?
~ loyal, superfriend. i miss her na


- What would you do if 3 and 8 were going out?
~ [hahahaha!!! pwede rin!! para ok lang lagi na sa pinsan ko pag me pc problems sila beng! hahaha! pero may ate jaja na si kuya ko e. hehe.]
~editted: SI GERAN BA? AY SI GERAN PALA!!!
PWEDE PA RIN PAG NAGIBA ANG IHIP NG HANGIN!!! SYET! AHAHAHAHA!!

- Who does 2 like?
~ malamang gf nya. balita ko buntis na? haha peace insan... XD

- Would you ever go to the movies with number 9?
~ oo ba. i think we already did? pero kung mauulit, lulubusin ko na... "tol, IMAX tayo!"


- Is number 4 hot?
~ taena, tinatanong pa ba yon?!?! anu nga ulit yung tanong?! =))

- What can u say about number 10?
~ may utang ka saking kwento, abeto... ungas ka.

- Does 20 know 16?
~ no they don't

- What sport does 14 play?
~ find the missing ONION hahaha syet taena ewan!

- What school is 17 from?
~ mapua intramuros

- Will 18 and 12 work out as lovers?
~ "yes pwedeng pwede kaya lang taken na pareho eh" -galing mismo sa sagot ni rex, pero... pare... taken na si eyns haha. IKAW BA?!

- Is 11 friendly?
~ OO NAMAN! dami nga rin boylets nyan ehhh hahaha peace tintin XD


- Would you go out with 13?
~ hotness din to eh! hahaha! bakit hinde?! kanina nga lang sinabihan ako nyang mag tutuban daw kame.. pasensya ka na gurl magpapastraight ako alaws areps na

- Are you close to 15?
~ yeah, pero me times hinde. pinipili nito mga taong kkwentuhan nya eh! UNFAIR!!!

- Ever dated 19?
~ bakit hinde? treat mo ko siopao sa me inyo zarah


- Is 16 a good friend of yours?
~oo naman, para bang no words could describe his goodness... [amen!]

- What would you like to say to 12?
~ salamat, ikaw ang unang-unang friend ko sa ar1-4!!


- What would you like to say to 17?
~ i miss you pare!

- Ever Gotten into a fight with 18?
~ oo! lalo na pag nangg-goodtym na naman sya! pag feeling ko nauuto na naman ako gyera na to!! hahahaha!

- Describe 20.
~ nag-iisang EMO-kid sa mundo!! rock on mong!

What if 11 and 15 dated?
~ FCUK!! hahahahahaha parehong mga amazona yan eh! hahaha, hinde si 15 full grown man na!

- Would 16 and 19 make a good couple?
~ I KNEW IT! ikaw mama zarah ah!!! hahahahahhahahahaha!

- Is 14 a good kisser?
~ P**ANGENA NAMAN!!!! mag-aamoy sibuyas ako!!! leche. hayaan nyo ipapasubok ko kay kring one of this days hahahahahahahahaha gudlak

- How about 19 is she a good kisser?
~naks zarah! humihigop na rin yan hahahahahahaha

- One Word reminds you of 2
~ ex-politician Teofisto Guingona. hahaha. potek. syet.

unintentionally tagged by michelle...

okeeyyy break muna!


In the 8 facts about [your name here], you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you.
Then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going.
– Each blogger must post these rules first.
– Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
– Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
– At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
– Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1. i don't know how to eat rambutan :(

2. if you look closer into my eyes i have a small scar, specifically on my right eye [and technically the left eye kung nakaharap na ako sayo] because of an accident i got when i was 8--or 9 y/o i think... kaya hindi pantay ang lashes ko. that is why, i still feel uneasy riding to pedicabs, sidecars, or kahit ako yung magpatakbo...

3. pag nagbabalat ang kamay ko i always love peeling it... lalo na pag marami but then i hate the irony of the rough feeling when i hold into something hehe.

4. i could bend my thumb and my index finger the other way ng mga about 80%. dati they both reach my wrist. ngayon almost na lang. [wala nang practice :)]

5. i still keep my nostalgic paraphernalia, recollection letters, retreat letters, studio barkada pictures [hahaha] wayback highschool and even my recollection letters wayback elementary in my small black briefcase-slash-make-up kit. hahaha yeah make-up kit eh no with all the lock and the mirror inside hehehe. wala naman kasi akong sobrang daming kakikayan so i keep them all in there.

6. having all those letters and pictures in number 5, whenever i wanna go back sentimental mode i open the briefcase-slash-make-up kit and read my letters and see the pictures all over again. hehehe... nostalgia mania talaga

7. sometimes i am "piki", other times i am "sakang". hahaha but later i realized i am more of on the "piki" tribe hehehe.

8. really, aside from colored socks, i am also into collecting mugs of different sizes since elem. the bigger, the taller, the wackier, the better. :) kainis me nabasag na ilan nung time na we moved in this house. so, alam mo na kung anung ibibigay mong gift sakin sa christmas yikeeeee... still accepting post-birthday gifts... haha. beri well appreciated. :)


o sha, design mode na ulit! is gold.

simpsonized again x moving out x the hunt x departure

okay so what did i do in the last couple of days?

after his work last saturday, me and pandie went to the gateway cinemas to watch the simpsons! we even had a hard time deciding if we're going to watch it or ratatouille instead... but both films were only an hour and a half, plus i wanna laugh the best parts of the movie with him, so finally we settled on homer's crowd and done! we even saw a 3d model of the simpsons family outside the movie house you can even sit with them and take a shot with them! cool than the posters geran, me and jc were dying to pose with for, [ and the donut is way cuter in 3d guys ] the first time i watched it.

after that we went to sm to buy a pair of shoes... after that we went to tokyo-tokyo for dinner and even saw myla pascua with somebody [ maybe his boyfriend] after us... anyway... then we went straight home and done.

yesterday was a bit tiring. they woke me up to accompany my uncle to go fetch the materials they bought for windows in our future house in antipolo [ yep!! way farther than the halilis hahahaha!] grabe mamumundok na rin ako! they were planning to moved out by the end of this year... so... babay cubao...

ever since i was born, my heart feels im closer with everything when i am in cubao. really. i feel i have all the accesses to all parts of the metro. i never imagine myself going away to the place i was born, i schooled, i hang out and most of everything that i do for the past 20 years. surely i will miss everything!

anyway, there are also plans that my tita will going to stay here [ cos her business is in the food court of the market] and my brother works at east ave, so we might as well stay pa rin, and come up into deciding of going home to antipolo on weekends. bisitahin nyo ko ha! hahahaha

and so, after those tiring antipolo trip, i took a nap for about an hour and then kuya aris came. again, with my sole problem, which causes me a lot of depression the past week, which is our desktop [ currently i am in the laptop ]... then denis arrived too, and all of us went to the gateway mall in search of kuya aris' walk in slippers for work. after that he treated us in starbucks and then went to F&H but then it closes, kaasar! as in we're panicking for shopping til the last minute. luckily they have hought the things they really need.

and just a while ago, my father was again leaving the country to work... and i was, you know, sad again coz i might deny it but ill miss him scolding me [chuckles] and ill miss him keeping me reminding of things... to think and to analyze. really, it has been hard if he's away from us in special occassions like christmas and mom's birthday but i really lhave nothing to do to stop it because its the only way i could still enjoy the greatness of education and comfort of a family. so might as well strive in for more in school diba... kaya, guys do me a favor to help me pray for his safe journey to London... haha,

papa ill miss you!! *hugs* *kisses*

home buddy x wadaheck!!!!

i woke up from dreamland about 6:30am a while ago, thinking i could sign up for today's registration thingy in the city hall. goodness! kaya pala pati high school kasama kasi it was noted that ages 15-17y/o are the only ones allowed to register. kakainis! i was with albert kanina [he has a lil issue regarding on his voting stuff last time so he had to work on it], after his graveyard shift. he forgot to have his B.C. [it is the requirement] so we went first to his house, gave morning greetings to tita [his mom] and head off to the city hall, only to find out----syetmanaks!!! walang kwenta!!! i was still sleepy back then, ano pa sya diba? o instead of goofing around, we separate ways for him to return to his home and sleep.

now, after i took a nap [for about 5 hours whoa!] i am alone in the house coz mom and dad went to divi to buy dvds and other stuff i didn't bother to ask. dad will be leaving the country by the weekend or monday next week. i am sad because you may not know i am missing my dad when he's away... sometimes when he's scolding me i know he's making 'lambing' to me at the same time. he is a happy person full of principles... but then that principles sometimes i haven't got. haha ewan... sometimes i think ever since i started entering arki, my brain is going defective. hehehe.. no one will ever know til you see this page. so that is why i am carefully using my brain now.

lalalalalalala, i am alone in the house: depressed of my sick desktop... darn, i am even lazy to start my current design plate. but hey hey. i had a short dream of it when i took a nap! and slowly.... slowly...!! i am gaining my voluntary desire to start the thing!! yeah baby!

enough on the drama lane... WORK!!! wORK oRKW rKWO kWOR WORK!!! all these papetiks-petiks will give you payback time!!! i am telling you---- no!!! i am telling myself!!!! putangena, impress the world!!!! syet.

next thing i wanna learn: how to read newspapers

you

"better be weak for a moment, to help you be strong..."

to you who remembers
to you who knows the line,
thanks for making me have you all this days of self-searching.
to you who never gave up on me, sana ikaw din, matanggal mo na ang parehong meron tayo... kaso ikaw naka-embed na eh. nakatanim na sa mukha mo... kahit pa isang curve line yan.
ako gawa lang sa pulbos. hahaha...

siguro kailangan ko lang tanggapin na hindi lahat ng tao honest sayo when it comes to what they feel about the motives you do everyday...

i love you my friend! let's dream together... parang high school musical a! hehe.

t h i n k

this past few weeks i have been submerged into the thinking of myself not thinking the actions that i do. like what he's telling me, "think carefully first before doing something", it was the least thing on my mind to follow. its as if maybe i was chasing for my common sense to nowhere, or maybe im just this plain stupid or worst, my brain could actually now be the size of a nut.

and now that i was merely getting into the nerves of being noted like i don't have a brain or someone so stupid and nut-headed, i have come up to gather the things i have learned today:

-if it was not intended for you to be told, shut up.
-do not interfere with someone else's butt
-be the hell focused on your own stuff
-speak when someone wants to know what's on your mind, sleep if you feel like they won't bother
-don't act as if you know-it-all type
-better to eavesdrop than to say your ideas which in the end can be the end of your life.

funny, but it seems like i have gotten to restrain my stubborn self to mess up things i am not being told to mess up for.

i don't know now who exactly at this point in time can define really what i am feeling now, rather, who exactly knows what i am feeling or thinking or even the way i see things around me now. i had a hint 46 days ago that this can happen to me... that someone will claim that i've changed but to me its a different type of perspective. i may be as heartless as a stone these past few days but nobody asked me if i really like overdoing things. then ill just ignore it and just do my part and all. and then again, nobody will ask me why...

tama pala talaga yung kasabihan... wag ka nalang mangaral kung ikaw mismo hindi mo isinasabuhay... yahooo

haha, tama nga nga to, dudugo na ilong ko... breadtalk nalang baka sakaling bumenta.

spider pig, spider pig... does whatever the spider pig does!

ENJOY ANG PALABAS NA TO! at the centerstage in the mall of asia last night, i wanted to thank jc, beng at geran sa company, sa laughter at sa lahat! ang tindi, last full show! pero nakakainis pa rin ang mga "may sakit" kagabi, dahil don nahawa ako! waaaaaaaa...

and of course i wanted to apologize to pandie... sorry po ulit kung nag-alala ka... na-overdo ko na naman ang sarili ko...reckless, careless! i am so sorry if i made you mad for going home so late, pero like what i've said, ang plastic ko naman if i don't say i enjoyed the film. but promise when we try to watch again, yung tipong makakauwi ako before cinderella time.

so ayun nga, the film is nice and funny! tama si kiko sa kinuwento nya about it. though its only an hour and a half, astig pa rin! pandie, i wanna watch it again with you! wag ka na sana umangal hahahaha... i was so happy tom hanks was also there portraying as himself! aliw! pati green day! haha

kaya nga pala donut ang O jan sa movie kase..... hahahaha manood ka nalang!

da da da
da da da da
da da da
dadadada!! yeah!!
-greenday