IT'S BIGGS!

i was suddenly moved when kamil and i, after browsing what i have posted in the "highschool nene's" photo album entry, told me:

kamil: sana me pic din tayo ni robert gerald reyes...
biggs: AY OO NGA NOH... [take note: all caps talaga yan nung tinype ko]
kamil: me mga pics sya sa friendster e---
biggs: ?!?!?!?!
kamil:-----
biggs: HUWAAAAT??!?! PU***G *NA!!!
kamil: teka
biggs: ANUNG LINK ANUNG LINK??!?! BIGAY NA YAAAAN!!
kamil: hahahaha

then the rest was history. haha, we did some more talking until she gave me the holy link. hehe.. what can i say? aaaahhh!!

 i was indeed, too happy to hear that robert... has an existing profile on the net, thru friendster! i was so desperate to know what my all [almost life] time crush looked like now. he was my very first best boy bud, truly! i had [yes, had] a secret [now the world knows it already.. hi robert!] crush on him ever since prep. OO SINCE PREPARATORY! believe me or not, i never told anyone about it in school, not even to my own best gal friend/s! as in no one! way back then i always pray every year that i hope he's my classmate... he's even the reasons why i excel in class when i was in grade 5 because i might get the chance of being his classmate again when we reach grade 6... but then, fate tasted so sour and bitter, he transferred to another school... my young love-slash-infatuation crushed, along with my imaginations... :(

later i found out when i was in my first year hs, they already migrated in the states... poor me.
and now his face is haunting me like "here i am again..." juice ko!! hahaha!... grabe... though parang mejo dumungis sya at umangas ang looks, i still think i still like him. pero crush nalang talaga.. hindi na yung levelity na mag go beyond. hehe. anu ba...

robert robert robert... hmmm..... hahaha... grabe..

as i took a break from doing design, bigla ako napaisip what subjects am i going to have a bad possibilities of passing? sana wala pero, grabeeee sana wala bagsak! marami na ko naiisip para sa sembreak! kaya naman, noooo!! no to failing marks! boo!

badtrip and happy at the same time. a week after the finals, yehey na! and i was so blessed my brother loves to travel----isasama nya ko sa BACOLOD!!!! weeeeeeee!!! badtrip, kasi kung kelan tapos na ang design in which the site is located in bacolod, dun pa ko pupunta ng actual diba! pero wala na ko pake! happy na kung happy kasi i'll be seeing the masskara festival LIVE IN THE STREETS OF THE CITY OF SMILES!!! HAHAHA!! panalo!!

nakapagpareserve na utol ko ng flight! wow! hehehe!! ang saya! CHICKEN INASAL HERE I COME!!! NYAHAHAHA! :)

keeey, back to hell!

i was so down this night because somebody gave me the vibes of being into it.

anyway, i just want to share what i have just watched a while ago.

i remembered every thursday, dattebayo [http://dattebayo.com] is releasing the latest episodes of one of my favorite anime. [bleach, naruto, tsubasa chronicles, etc...]... now that it is on its 141st episode, it was sort of like a little special-filler type turning into something twisty and definitely a much awaiting story in the next episodes to come. i came sympathized to one of the female protagonists of the story [though the type of anime is more of the action type] because in the previous episode [140] she made a deal with the very bad guy to come with them and be their aid because if not, her comrades, especially the one who is so special to her will be in danger. [she possesses unique healing ability that the antagonist of the story got interested on]. and because of her soft heart she gave in to the condition... then she was only given 12 hours to do whatever she want, to prepare things before she'll be sent to 'hueco mundo' [meaning: hollow world]

she was asked to wear a special type of bracelet to always get a track on her, and also gives her the ability to pass through on walls if she desires to. lastly, she is about to say farewell to only one of  her friends and by midnight, she'll be sent to the hollow world and never come back.

well you see, she wanted to talk to all the friends she had but it ended that the only person she could say farewell to is the main character of the story, who is happened to be the most special person in her life. due to the previous dreadful fights in the series, the protagonist is sleeping for quite a long time and truly unconcious.


the catch: what struck me the most in the seires was that when the girl came into his bedroom, scope the room and even smelled the room as it was smelled like the guy. she held her hand like she can't hold him that much when he's awake, stared his face like she never did and she even dared to give him a kiss but she held back herself and cried, as she sighed and tell these lines: [originally in nihonggo]


"there were a lot of things i wanna do:
i wanted to become a teacher, an astronaut, and a baker...
i wanted to go to a bunch of different donut shops and ask for one of everything!
And i wanted to tell the ice cream man to give me one of everything, too!"

"i wish i could have five lives!
Then i could have been born in five different towns,
and eaten five lifetime's worth of food,
and have five different careers,
and..."

"...fall in love with the same person, five times."
"thank you... Good Bye."

and she left to go into the other world that she can't sure what awaits her there..

haha, for sure JC in some point will see this entry and laugh at me but mind you, when i watched this episode, it was the first time in this action type of anime that it actually made me sob.. ang babaw! the lines that Inoue [the girl] said was plain childish and innocent [she was mainly slow-minded and not so brilliant girl in the series] but it does make a lot of sense, like any other action-packed shows around. hehe.

wala lang, i just vent out the review i did with the story... anyway, i tried to maintain my entry into some extent that the readers can still relate, even though they don't watch the entire show.

aabangan ko yung ep142! haha.. pagpaumanhin sa barok na pagiingles. tao lang. gusto mag-improve.

for those who watched bleach ep141, there's a better review than this hehe. its at http://randomc.animeblogger.net/2007/09/19/bleach-141/

i suddenly have just created a lop-sided smile upon thinking of the word. a part of me was in hell indeed, agreeing that it was all right. i have the 'calling'.

we had this forum last friday with all other 'servant leaders' at the education bldg auditorium. i learned a lot from it cause they invited a very good and wacky speaker, and no doubt, the way she tell things DO struck me. i had this issues on myself regarding on this instant position i got for the past three months, and silly as it is sounded, i still consider it as one. drama eh no... still, i wanted to redeem myself as i post this entry... and hey... i already set myself free to all the incoming comments, critiques, whatsoever... i don't care anymore.

getting serious. i realized, i was this being the helpful dude ever since i-don't-know-when. for sure you also had this feeling of helping others in need automatically and even if its just a little, you have to admit you do. well mine's more like, i always wanna help. i always wanna give, to make people satisfy in life has to offer however i was so limited doing it to the point of making me look like i always want to get the attention of everyone, or like all that i do was plain showing off but in fact i just wanted to give a hand. in short, i was merely like, wanting to please everybody...

now? like in my past entries, that statement turned out to be a question. do i really have to please everybody?

then there enters the forum. it made me think that the newst question revolving on my head is not covering the entire mass i have to please. not all has this eye on you all the time. still, when i thought about the word 'service', my mind drifts to my beliefs, to what things i used to like to do, and to what i am currently feeling amidst the experience being the servant. Ma'am Cabral told us, "its like you die one thousand and one times in serving others." yes, all these things would help me to grow as a person. i really wanted to help, to serve... to be a servant. but i can't help getting tired because afterall, i am still a normal individual like you and everyone else around. getting into the dramachine eh? haha, you may think its exaggerating, but i now i feel like i really need the help of Someone. or even maybe adding everyone...

subconciously, i am passing myself into the conclusion that i want to serve. maybe that part of me was right. maybe, i need to improve myself more... to change what makes me so deep down and depressed and unworthy to the calling...and maybe, another set of questions again spinning in my head will be equalled with the appropriate answers at the right time...

man, dramachine talaga. i think i need to submit my thoughts to dreamland once more...

yep, i had this major writer's block, na pilit kong tinatanggal sa sistema ko so that i can vent out what i feel after all day's work. nakakapagod. and then that third major plate was released na, juice ko, another hell break before the real break.

a lot has happened the last week and the week before that. tas ewan no time for blogging ang drama ko nun kase sa design. mas mabuti pang matulog kesa magblog. haha tama b yun? ewan. tapos adik pa utol ko sa sims 2. mejo nagsisisi ako na ininstall ko haha syet. pero now that fate gave us kahit isang linggong pahinga to unwind, prang kulang. and im not even getting more...

reporting galore na naman nito... hay.
i need the cooperation of everybody. sana...

hana kmi naman jan mga hana kimi-ers! wooo writer's block syndrome... go away...