RPC whattabouts!

^* i am feeling: pain in my thigh part, but over all happy! ^____^ *^
^* currently listening to: When Love And Hate Collide ~Def Leppard *^

no words could tell what i have in mind right now. swear, i almost deleted that first sentence i have just typed, just thinking of what exact and appropriate words to define what i feel. haha, it's just that i felt happy. yes. tired, but then, worth tiring...

after we finished the 11-12noon mass a while ago and our lunch, i attended the ragna fest at the world trade center in manila. cool, i say... there i saw albert and his blockmates, who lately got into RO too... finally i saw guildmates danica and rich, their new recruit veej, ysma and ayin... and, hehe, of course eman, arthur, carlo and his siblings were there too. i enjoyed a lot, but hey, i'm still shy towards them. (maybe i stick to the reason that it's the very first time that i met them)... ^__^ too bad daryl wasn't with them... and shyla and pao...

bert met me at the entrance, and accompanied me on how to fill up and get registered with those stuff. then we got inside the convention, and watched a single match... then all of us went to have a group pic sana, but then no one had brought a camera (no not a cam phone ayt?) a real manual camera, that's what i'm saying... anyway, we still got pics, and of that sumo poring match with bert. haha! that was really hilarious! i didn't won to bert, but he did gave me his prize. a notepad! i said to him that i'll just get a half of it, but when he's about to divide it, we found out that the thing that binds them would lose all of it. in the end, he gave the pad to me. (thanks!)

so what else had happened? eman does a lot of teasing, i must say! but then i do really have a great and a comfy company with you. (naks!) well, actually, all of them who came. danix said that they really waited for me. (i'm sorry!) hmm... i remember, bert said that they arrived at WTC before noontime... nakakahiya ako! hahaha! >.<

eman and the others left the convention by past three. so that leaves albert and i, and carlo, who was with his sister and his cousin. sitted on the floor, bert and i waited and watched the cosplay before decided to go home. we laughed so hard at the cosplayers!!! one participant portrayed as whisper! really laughing our hearts out! my stomach aches because of nonstop laughing! and then another guy cosplayed a baphomet! ok na sana e, but that bapho was a thin one! super funny! i was, on the other hand, impressed with some cosplayers who DID portray dancers... hey! another funny scene-- a gay cosplayer crossdressed himself as a dancer!! the audience were hooting and all, he's really funny!! sobra talaga!! i was amazed, one girl really moves like a real dancer, and another, i saw a real life rogue costume. she's so cute. and lastly, i was really fascinated and admired the ones who portrayed evil druid and bloody knight. bet, they really find hard time in doing their costume though..

i bought souvenirs from the convention! i was upset, the devi hat was a total sold out! so, i just bought a mouse pad. i also albert one though he insisted not to. anyway, he bought me a pin and gave that notepad... isa pa, hindi ko pa sya nalilibre... ^__^

after the cosplay, we decided to go home. albert has to go to mass, since he hasn't gone for his exam held at the morning, and another tomorrow... we took a ride at the mrt-- and oh! again. albert, im sorry about your ticket! anyway, i hope you had a safe trip!

that doesn't stop there. when i got out from the station, my friend rayjohn saw me. i remember he treated me last time,... God is good, and I'm also good, (laughs devilishly!) so i decided to treat him, kahit isang zagu grande lang... ^__^ i accompanied him bought cd at odyssey, since he said that whenever he's depressed, he bought one. (yaman huh!)

i got a little scold by my mom when i got home. hindi ko kasi napaalam na i'll drop by at the gateway once i got arrived from WTC... naubusan ako ng load e! pero ngayon ok na.

whoa... naka-aeRo na rin ako... man... adik na ulit! gee... gulay talaga!

til then...

ta-daaa...

^* i am feeling: empty... emotionless but a heavy feeling inside... *^
^* currently listening to: I Miss You So Much ~TLC *^



hmm... i remember, yesterday i signed up and renewed my membership at my org', UAPSA. then i applied for the UAPSA staffer, and the screening would be by the first week of july. wish me luck!

i can't tell my thoughts tonight. it's like i'm between in fires... fires that slowly fade. not that i'm tired of fighting and listening to what things should come out and shoudn't be, but if you come to realize, you risk one important element in your life when you entered a more serious relationship.

and then i would ask myself, am i that friend they really need? i sobbed at the fact that i can't explain what feeling should take place... i never imagine that this time would come in their lives. you know, i've known them to be strong, as they endure all the hardships they are facing... and then all of a sudden, you would not expect that this day... would be an earth shaking scenario for the both.

ito lang tatandaan nyo... no matter what happens, im still here for the both of you guys...

ewan ewan ewan.......

^* i am feeling: irritated of yesterday's mess *^
^* currently listening to: Kailan ~M.Y.M.P. *^

my post after an hour...

malas...

i told you-- for us, this semester is a CURSE!!! i hate it... i haaaaaatttteeee!!! damn....!!

kainis, why of all professors to teach us, bakeeet siya pa?! aww, not that i really really don't like that man. pero pak talaga! para mo na ring sinabing wala akong kinabukasang naghihintay!! taena taena taena!!!


yes. sir sityar is our design 3 prof. (rollling eyes)

anak ng... the moment he entered the room, taena, sobrang shock kaming lahat-- parang--alam mo yun?! nung nandoon na sya sa loob, and then my other classmates started entering as well--believe me--matatawa ka sa mga facial expression! meron iba, laglag panga-- laki mata, napapa "shit" ng walang ingay ang bibig at iba pa! sobrang grabeng gulat talaga... ayoko naaaaaa!!!

malas talaga ang araw kahapon... it's like, you know--i started to feel more pissed, with all old and new profs we see and deal with. malas!! malas malas malas talaga!! kahit nga ngayon mejo malas rin e. kasi physics na naman namen, tas c sir juelar na naman! nakukunot ang noo na ewan!!! baaaaaaad!!!

malas. we're dismissed by 4 yesterday, but i, eyns, beng and kring decided to drop by first at the central library. ayun, tingin2 ng mga useful sources for our HOA report. the three got logged in the internet to check their NSTP modules while i checked the OPAC for available books na super need namin. in the end, wala rin. pak. then we decided to go separate ways by 6pm, pero nakinood muna ako ng naruto sa dorm nila kring... mejo naabutan ko kahit konti. hehe. after that, naisip kong mag-FX na lang. sakto, i saw rayjohn pauwi na rin. nagsabay na kami.

we decided to sit at the middle part ng fx. while i and rayjohn were listening to his hale cd, he got his phone and type some texts and then showed it up to me. my eyes widened, coz in the text, he says that we have schoolmates kissing behind us. oo pare... maniwala ka. hindi na nahiya! buti sana kung sila nga lang talaga yung mga tao dun na nag p-P.D.A. ... me sakay din yung isang babae na hindi na lang maiwasang bintana ang harapin sa hiya. sobra talaga... shempre pa-simple ako, i looked at my peripheral vision... wapak! tsk tsk... ayun. mala-madugong bakbakan! juice ko... i think they rested for a while nung me sumakay ulit na girl. so that makes them four at the back part of the car. after a kilometer, yung unang girl na nakatingin na lang sa bintana, bumaba na. so tatlo na ulit sila... upon heading to Quezon Institute in E.Rod, taena, back to the session sila! rayjohn signalled me that they started once more. nakikita kasi ni rj whenever he faces and talks to me, kasi nasa bandang right yung mga yun. sakto, dumidilim ang langit... tsugi ako nito, coz i forgot my umbrella!!! ayun. malas talaga... when we reached Trinity, rain started to pour down.

bumaba nalang ako sa gateway kasi dun me silong. useless... medyo nabasa rin ako. buti talaga hindi ko pa dala ang mga sandata ko... babaho yun lalo na yung t-sq! we waited til the rain has somehow stops, luckily mejo humina. naghiwalay na kami ni rj sa access ng gateway to farmers... then i dropped by at our canteen, my cousin told me na brown out sa bahay!! malas!!! i planned pa naman to check my NSTP module, pero brownout! i got home like spending dinner time in candlelight... hay nako... plastado na rin ako, kaya bagsak na talaga sa kama...

hindi na ko nagising, until morning sunshine hits me... aaaahhh!!! late na ko for physics! (kanina!) assginment ko!!! malas talagaaaa!!! takaw tulog! buseeet! kamote!


today? we still haven't traced our Building Technique prof... siya naman ngayon... wow. manila day...

ei, gotta split. magsusundo pa ko sa airport bukas! til then... teka, sa blackboard lang muna...

astig naman nito! (thanks to daryl)

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tinry ko. ahahaha. pareho kami ni daryl. wakeke... ^__^

nobelista breakdown... ninja comeback...

^* i am feeling: confused... basta magulo... *^
^* currently listening to: I Can Wait Forever ~Air Supply *^

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balik aral ulit. bitbit t-square ulit. asul na tubo at iba pa...

i visited the site our NSTP facilitators told us. i was supposed to check on it yesterday, but my modem was a total bummer!! aww, enough of this... no school stuffs in my blog, please! >_<

hmm.......... mixed feelings starts to fill me. sometimes you just have to receive all the sadness without them knowing that you're actually into it. isn't it weird? one moment you're feeling proud, happy and all... and suddenly vanished and be replaced with more priceless negative one. i gone nuts whenever i hear soap icons saying "why did God let you feel the happiness if in a minute he'll ask you to give it back to him?" ? but then when you've come to realize it, it wasn't just a soap line... it's really happening.


some things would come unexpectedly. and then you can never just stop it from happening, until you'll end up seeing a repeated situation and so on. i sobbed into the fact that everything's changing. change... haven't i asked myself that before...

naranasan mo na ba yun? yung manahimik na lang at hayaang ikaw na lang at ikaw pa rin ang nakakaalam ng emotional sickness mo? Have you tried feeling that feeling of shutting out your mouth and just go forward--fine peace in another way? gusto mo tranquil lang yung moment... gusto mo para kang steady. period.

i wasn't good at fortune-telling; neither predicting the wind tomorrow or so... pero na-vision ko na to--na someday, all things would slow down, and life's getting easier like before. no challenge... just a non-stop fight without any thrill at all. no worries. easy life... na para bang ang lahat ng kailangan mo sa buhay sa isang hilaan lang, nasa yo na...

bakit ganon? kailangan ba ganon? kung nakukuha nga sa hirap ang lahat... bakit hindi... lahat ba mawawala? bakit ganon? parang pili lang ang mga taong kailangang sumaya. meron iba, ginugusto nalang mag-isa. naghihintay sa wala... nagdadalawang-isip sa tanong na pwedeng may magtapos at magsimula. ang kwentong kahit kailan walang tauhan at matibay na paghuhugutan.

ito ba ang nagagawa ng Air Supply 'Forever Love' greatest hits collection cd mo, zarah?


isosoli ko na...

coincidence x guilt x ...into the batcave! /gg!

i am feeling: the usual feeling...
currently listening to: Mou Sukoshi... Mou Sukoshi... ~Atsumi Saori


i just feel like hearing again my animè playlist. the one in Midori No Hibi was first in all of it, so...

anyways...

as what my classmate rommel (mong) had just posted into my tag, i planned to set my text in normal size. i'll see if it looks like better than before, then maybe i would stick to this. haha, i told myself na i won't be telling my thoughts in english, pero nawiwili ako... nakakahawa ka wakokoko!

i wasn't able to post what all had happened yesterday and last night, though online ako... mas focused ako sa pag-pass ng pic for arch. fontecha... man... that prof seems to be happy... and gay i suppose... and hell--my mail bounced back, telling me that his mail reached his full storage! darn, i remember he said that the last 10 students who'll make to pass it would mean to recite next meeting. asar. i'm worried baka mapasama ako sa late students na yun! i just got successfully mailed my pic to him just a while ago. geez..

hmm... yesterday morning was a little confusing though. well, mong had said it very well in his blog already, but then i share my own view about the incident. our first subject kasi was VT3 (Visual Technique 3)... i admit, i have that nagging feeling that we'll meet his face again... but not in the field we've known him to be merciless. yup, sir arlegui is our VT3 prof for this sem. but, as mong had said, he "was" supposedly our prof.

i had to admit, i mumbled bad words on arlegui as he was entering our room with his unbeatable smirk plastered on his lips. napa-shit ako, napa-taena... as if i would curse his mcdo coffee he was holding would go all wrong. hey mind you, i saw my classmates too widened their eyes. maybe they're convincing themselves na that can't be, or impossible or napa-shit din marahil tulad ko. then after that wicked smile, sir arlegui started blabbing things--kesho we'll be working with him again; kesho we had nothing to do without it; kesho he seems not to bother receiving bad evaluations about him last sch. yr, etc... etc...--and so on. i was seated in front of him, near the aisle, so, he really ses me in the eye. after that, i began to feel stagnant, and just let myself hear what he wants to say to the class. then i felt im kind of interested, and in a while realizing that maybe he was really specialized teaching this course instead of design... mas bagay sya siguro sa field na yun. at eto pa... though he was only meant to suggest things we must use, they're still expensive (i.e. watercolors, paintbrush, a cold pressed watercolor paper, etc..)... pero ganun pa man, i just said to myself that i musn't got so surprised anymore. when you say you're taking an architecture course--you mean to spend money. lots of it. and then kring at the same time backed up my reverie... "pero kung ganun ding magtatagal ang painting for centuries gamit yan, worth it naman.", she whispered. pero what makes me a bit irritated is that when he said na pati ang tubig, ok raw ang distilled! haha, it's just that my curiosity came out last.

he was still discussing, and asked jc and some other guy (i think ikaw yon, mong eh!) to get the laptop and the projector for him. he goes on as the equipment was finally assembled, and then telling us again what he got in his feedback from his students (including us)... after the class roll call, he started to teach again and show us some works made out of water color until a lady from outside caught his attention. he said he'll be back by a few minutes. ayun... the class we're like powered on again, chitchatting, commenting and groaning! (maybe kasi sa kanya), pero ako i groan for food. then sakto, geran asked me if i wanted to buy coffee... that's it. kahit kape nalang... then, zarah and beng accompanied us. sa 6th floor i saw mong and leo buying one too. it was like a coincidence from what he had told in his blog... see? ^__^

i remember, zarah told me na when we're heading downstairs (our room kasi was in rm506), sir arlegui passed by, parang nagmamadali. zarah even said "hi", but then he didn't greet back. i even scolded zarah kasi we went out, w/o him knowing, and pinatawag lang naman sya sandali. when we got back to our room, i feel different. the laptop and lcd were putting back into their cases--looks like the class had suddenly dismissed. we asked them and found out na sir was disregarding all the things he had said and all, for he was be altering with another professor to teach us. isang palaisipan ng tulad kong walang alam! napa-HA? kami, and ayun, they told us na he might get fired from the school due to our evaluations we did. i felt sad for him, na-guilty at nanghinayang. coz from what i saw in him was a change. he wanted to change... but i guess it's too late for him. no one could tell why, but sure, the admin's serious about this.

he was given forced resignation...

and the rest was history...

i felt sad for him. but hindi ko rin naman idedeny na nakahinga ako ng maluwag, just a thought that we are having a replacement of him. i felt guilty of uttering bad words like curses on him the very first thing in the morning pero kapag sa huli, maiisip mo, it's not only me who thought bad of him during those days... tht's why he's telling us that 75% negative comments he got. *buntong hininga*... im sure of this.

after all what had happened, we continued dealing at the remaining subjects: Literature and Building Utilities. we got the same prof in lit just like in freshman days, 1st sem. she gave seatworks to do... in BU, there we have arch. fontecha... na-dismissed kami ng 4, kya i called up rayjohn para sabihin kung saan kami magkikita. we decided kasi to go together at sunshine's birthday...

hmmmff... pinaghintay nya ko ng almost 1 hour sa gateway! 6pm something na yun when he finally showed up. dahil sa atraso, he offered me an iced tea sa wendy's... mejo suhol yon a! hahaha... after all i gave in. im thirsty.

to cut it short, i, rj and reinier went to shine's place in commonwealth, qc. ... naks, dalaga na si shine, we asked her why she didn't make the party in a hotel or someplace, debut naman nya. she said she wanted a simple dinner, with family, relatives and friends... nangyari naman. mario was there too, pero wala sina gayle, joy and the llena twins. they offered me a drink i can't say no, pero in the end, they let me---or shall say, i let them. i drink super occasionally lang naman e. it's not bad though... or else, magmumuka kang patay-ligaya. i arrived home almost 11, mejo kakaba-kaba sa jeep kasi when you've some to think of it, travelling back to cubao from there wasn't a joke. thank God mom hasn't scold me that much. i even got online pa nga... that's it.

shine, belated ulit.

MORE RECENT'S...

i got NSTP class a while ago. the admin wanted us to come in complete college uniform, so i've got nothing to do with it. an orientation was held, explaining that our lecture and class discussions will be held online... we'll get our homeworks from the internet, the modules and post tests... 4pm na kami natapos.

after that, i texted albert and continued what we had dealt last night. meet ulit kami at sm north and watched batman begins! hahaha! ganda ng sinehan! so that means bigger money too... libre ko sine, sagot ni bert food. ganun parin yung popcorn. pero bawi rin! because of the iced tea tumbler i guess... hahaha! so parang balewala rin yung libre ko! waaaaaaaa! my feedbacks from my friends about how the movie was weren't that true... it's not that super ugly, ok naman! siguro parang OA lang sa part na pwede na si batman sa japanese movies... right. japanese horror! pero japanese talaga. (just watch it to know why) around 8 natapos yung palabas. then after that bumili si bert ng parts for his prototype. hehe. hey, thanks bert sa souvenir ha... wakokoko... saya mo talaga kasama! /no1

about the ragna fest, we'll see into that.

hahahaha! i saw the harry potter trailer! at last! basta yun yon! hahaha! that's all of it. yes wala kami class bukas! rest time!



sibat na ko....

i am feeling: quite pissed again, not sleepy...
currently listening to: Kung Wala Ka ~Hale

"oh... hindi ko maisip
kung wala ka...
oh...
sa buhay ko..."

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i can't help but to sleep the moment my body landed into the sofa... maybe that answers it.

nah... and as of this very moment my lovable brother tries to intrude my minute of silence!! i must say he's been in front of our pc for about an hour or two... yet he's still even has the guts to steal my chance being seated here! i felt again that sudden annoyance just seeing him luring me to give my place. he sucks...

hmm... badtrip na naman kanina... kainis--do we really have that DESIGN 3 professor assigned to teach us?!?! he/she's been striking us twice now! he/she hasn't still showed up, nor his/her sleeve was traceless... the least thing i could think of is that i hope he/she's not like the same prof we had last semester... geez, i felt tired and hopeless just by the fact i was only thinking of sir arlegui... inis...

AR 2-4 had an election of the new SY class officers... i was happy JC got the position of being our class president, though honestly i voted for Jotong. No, don't get me wrong; if you'll only knew... (*smiles* & *giggles*) that JC was nominated to all ranks of the officers mentioned! for me, it's not that we make fond of her nor tripping her so much, but i could say; that was way falttering on her part. see? she could do all those stuff--she can be a president or a vice; even our scribe and money keeper... everything's good when she handles things. astig, hands high ako talaga sa kanya... it's just that i wanted her to be the class secretary, eh since she's been a good one ever since 1st sem of last year... she would remind us of our skeds and new tasks to do--in or out the net. teehee! well? she's stepping into another level into the world of politics!! but hey, ming wasn't bad to be our new secreatary! congrats, ming! ^__^

the rest are as follows:
anton mercado- vice pres.
ming javier- secretary ( i already said it ^_^)
tintin solano- treasurer
rex "papa rex" bulao - P.R.O.!! (hahahaha! naks! ampogee!)
adrian tan - sgt @ arms! (wakoko, ang lakas ng trip! kelangan pa daw talaga nito...)

guys, hope you'll serve us until to the very last drop of blood you could offer! hahaha! *lolz*


into the other side of life...

because our design prof didn't meet us (still), i don't know what made the four of us (no, actually we're five--kring and her bf jojo on the phone, beng, and siegfrid) share our thoughts of the day. tambay kami sa tapat ng building. of course we can't resist ourselves from teasing each other---being paired up to someone else in the class. nakarami si kring sakin kanina... nagmukha akong jukebox! yep, i was singing for her and her bf... gawin daw ba kong background music! and take note--old songs! (ayus ka a..) then after that--i, beng, and sg tripped kring as we sang the "beam" TV ad, altering it to "k-r-i-n-g"! then being partnered up to adrian tan. (ikeee!!!) hahaha, of course hindi na nya kausap si jojo nun. eh di sinakal kami ni kring... lolz!



AAAAAARRRGGHH!!!! where the hell our design professor is hibernating at?! taena nakakaurat na sya!!!

dapat talaga marunong kang umunawa...

i am feeling: sad...
currently listening to: patapos ng song na Talaga Naman ~M.Y.M.P. ;sabay Fire ~Kitchie Nadal


everything was going well at school (so far)... pang-asar lang yung mga nang-iindyang mga profs sa hapon. alam mo yun--na sana umuwi ka nalang at doon maglunch sa bahay nyo. nakakainis, tapos panigurado baka ganito na naman ang set up bukas. sana hindi, pero parang oo siguro.

about my new subjects, hmm... mukang enjoy na hassle pa rin na nakakakabang ewan na hay naku. ang dami! hahaha... to make it short, mixed feelings. palagay ko, sa mga currently na pinagkakaabalahan ko, dahan-dahang magsslow down. isa-isa ko nang igigive-up... isa-isa ko nang isasacrifice. nakakalungkot pero siguro nga dapat ganun. dapat nalang unawain na para rin sakin to. (naks)... kelangan ng self-control! disiplina para mabawas-bawasan ang kaadikan. hahaha... oh well... i really should, and just focus on my studies... yebah.

umulan kahapon. oh diba ang saya? oo kasi nabasa ako... wow, ispiritu na ng june... rainy season. ang pinakagusto kong parte ng taon. maraming dahilan para don, at sikreto yun! wahaha.

as i was about to finish my HOA assignment tonight, hindi ko makalimutan yung naabutan ko on my way home a while ago... akala ko me nagkakagulo kasi. meron nga, pero hindi showbiz icon. yun naman lagi mga dinudumog diba? oh di kaya yung mga basaggulerong all time pambasag-katahimikan ang eksena. ito iba...

Aso... dog sa english. inu sa japanese. askal sa mga taong tulad naming pala-laro sa kalsada. oo aso... hindi sila dalawa. nag-iisa lang s'ya--nakahiga, me tali sa leeg. may siga. may apoy... maraming tao. puno ng tanong yung utak ko, sa sobrang puno, kumukunot ang noo ko, nagsasalubong ang kilay ko sabay tanong sa kapitbahay "anung nangyari?", yung aso kaya lupaypay sobra. pinusta ko talagang humihinga pa yun e. pero ayun. wala... wala nang buhay. sabi ng kausap ko "masyadong matapang, nakakagat na yata"...blah blah..

seryoso, nanlabo mga mata ko. kinaladkad yung aso sa gilid ng daan, itinabi sa lugar na hindi malalapitan ng mga bata. wala akong magawa kundi pumasok nalang sa gate namin, pigil na pigil sa pwedeng magawa ng awa ko. bigla akong nagtaka, susunugin ba nila yun? pagsara ko ng gate--dahan-dahan--bigla kong naisip na hindi malabong mangyaring lunod ang mga tanggero sa mga oras na ito... sana mali ako. hindi na ko lumabas... yung aso... nanghihinayang ako na hindi ko malaman. kahit pa sya na ang pinakahalang na aso sa kalye namin, hindi naman sana na parang ganun-ganun na lang, na hindi man lamang sila nagpaalam sa kanya na matsutsugi siya... pwede... pwede pa syang ipagdasal ke papaLord. hindi... basta... earth's getting worse. hindi lang aso. kahit yung bespren nito.

grabe, tuwang-tuwa pa naman ako sa love quote na finorward sakin. aso parin... saklap.

yung aso... yung aso... ui, mukang pamilyar.

cravings for CCS...

you see...?




look how she wonderfully smiles at the person in front of her...

man... syaoran's blushing.


darn... i really love this piece of manga exerpt!

eh?! btw, nasan na kaya yung 2nd movie cd ko? tsk... tsk... burara...

hmm... this is it...

i've done some changes in my page. i put some pics, and stuff... ginanahan ako e. tamang lagay ng counter atbp... next time na yung soundclips...

pasukan na naman... hay...

nalulula ako sa mga tanong... pati sa sagot ko... juice ko... bakit ba kayo ganyan...

popcorn naming walang lasa!!

i am feeling: tired, happy, not so tired but very happy... ^__^
currently listening to: the sound of our restless electric fan... /pif

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adikbert and i have just watched mr. and mrs. smith... --starring brad pitt and angelina jolie.


astig ung palabas. action-packed na, astig din mga high tech guns and gadgets and effects. sabi nga namin ni bert scripted nalang yung last part, nang barilan scene... a-choreo ung mga galaw etc... masaya naman... just think of achilles of troy partnered up with lara croft of tomb raider doing action!--at mag-asawa pa! aww, not just couples but... haha! im spoiling it! when history meets modern generation! haha yun nalang!! ok ang tandem... watch ka na rin!

i would like to thank albert for today. lolo salamat ha, nag-enjoy akong kasama ka! thanks so much, and kahit ang popcorn natin butter lang ang lasa, what matters is the great company we had! basta ba bibilan mo ko ng life-sized angel helm kapag nagkayayaan ulit tayu! pramis susuutin ko yun kahit pagkaguluhan ako ng madlang pipol hahaha! man, basta wag mo lang ako iwan sa ere pag sinuot ko yun. weeee! /gg

nga pala lolo... as of this moment i am eating... PILLOWS! buti me stock pa ung binilhan ko!yebah!! goodluck! Ü

hang-over ng inis x make-over x DDR (?)

hai. hai desu.

sa dami ng mga pinag-iisip ko the previous night, ginawa ko ang pinaka naiisip kong mabisang paraan. crazy or not, wala ako pakelam sa opinyon mo. una, inis ako sa sarili ko, sa paghihintay sa wala, sa palaging pag-asa, sa kapatid ko, sa kakuriputan ng mundo, sa kabaratan ng level up... sa nalalapit na pasukan, sa kawalan ng pera. sa ka-boringan.

bakit ba? gusto ko magpagupit e...

oo, tama ka ng nabasa ulit. nagpatrim lang naman ako at hot oil. minsan it ain't bad if you gave in for pleasure to yourself from being stressed out, and by being physically mentally and emotionally hurt. medyo gusto ko ang look ko ngayon, um... so-so lang. trim lang naman, at mejo nabanat ang buhok ko. d na ganun ka-dry, at confident nang maglugay. taray ng lola mo oh...

matapos yon, sinamahan ko ate (pinsan) ko na magdeliver ng order sa canteen. 3 kami. direcho kami ni jowie sa internet cafè, at naglaro ng... alam mo na. man, kazeRO was cool! tama! hindi cia aeRO ha, kazeRO. another RO game, hindi offline, at libre. sino ba namang hindi sasaya sa wala pang 10 minutes lvl20 ka na, with 1st job pa! at sandamakmak na loots! isang patayan lang sa poring lvl 6 ka na?!?! tae diba! pero whalanjo, sulit ang isang oras. calculated nasa lvl70+ ka na--2nd job na, at job 50 mo pa ung 1st! wow!

tas nagpRO din ako. la, busy sila, so i don't bother them. hindi rin naman ako nagtagal sa kazeRO, tamang natuwa lang sa levelling stuff, pero nag server closed. ang labo. tae.

dismayado ako na ewan sa nangyari! kaya binuhos ko nlang sarili ko sa DDR!! uu, pagkatapos ko manood ng animax, ayun nagtatatalon na ko. happy naman konti. haha, whatta comeback!! weee!! kahit na inis ang start ng weekend ko, ok parin. DDR... hehehe. haha, me naaalala akong tao. nasan na kaya sya...

hmm... eto. even party kami ngayon nila bert, eman at pao sa pRO. gmit ko vit knight. c pao GC, c bert ME, c eman FS. nice team! mismatch abbysmal knight! wakoko...

as for me? mejo nagfefade na rin yung annoyance. what an online game could only do. thanks to danix and kelvin... salamat talaga. lalo na sau danix, i know someday things would turn out to be very fine. ^__^

yan. im feeling better.

this is the nastiest day ever

kulang nalang sumabog ako ngayon. hindi ako naniniwala sa kasabihang "maybe you woke up at the wrong side of the bed". woke up--woke up pa, eh panaginip ko palang ata tinakda na para sirain ang bong byernes ko.

i won't deny i got pissed with my bro a while ago. para kasi siyang walang pakelam sa mundo. as if he's not living here, parang balewala sa kanya kung me naiinis siyang tao or me nasasagasaan na siyang feeling... parang walang consideration, knowing na i do the laundry for him and fix his endless mess as he leave the house almost e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y... not that i'm counting all what i do for him, kasi whenever he goes out, mom would always scold me, na parang ako ang may kagagawan ng lahat. pakiramdam ko tuloy ako lang ang nagkakasala sa pamamahay na to. parang minsan naman hindi nila ko intindihin. instead of nagging, i just kept myself shut.

whenever i wanted to go out, parang me kung anong urgent lakad. sarili kong lakad hindi ko magawa. it's always their wants, at iniiwan akong avid taong-bahay. laging ganito. lagi rin akong uunawa. lagi rin akong nagbibigay. akala lang nila puro ako nag nang nag; laging walang ginawa kundi magreklamo, but look who's the winner in the end? sila pa rin. akala lang nila i mischief them, pero mabait ako inside--see, i even took good care of their 'palace' while they're gone.

pero bakit ako... pag ako na humingi ng favor, kasalanan ko pa rin? what i don't understand is that they never learn to understand me also.

and what makes me hate the whole day more? nang paghintayin ako sa muntikan-pang-kawalan. tanga ako e. pero sana 'wag nalang ipagdiinan pa. lalo na yung pinararamdam pa. taena, hindi ko alam kung gusto pa rin ba to mangyari sakin ng me Kagustuhan, sana hindi naman... pilit kong pinapaniwala ang sarili ko na ganito talaga ang buhay. pero.. sa ngayong parang mauubos ang lakas ko (sa wala), naiisip kong tao parin akong napapagod intindihin ang mga dapat intindihin. naiinis ako masyado akong mapagbigay, ubod ako ng bait kahit hindi ko nakikita sa sarili ko yung literal na ibig sabihin nung salitang yun. dati balewala lang sakin yung paghintayin ka ng ganun-ganun lang, pero ngayon alam ko na ang pakiramdam. ayoko na nga ulit maranasan pa yun. pakiramdam ko bigay lang ako ng bigay, pero ni minsan ba naisip nila na ako ba pinagbigyan din nila? uunawa ka nang uunawa, pero ako ba inuunawa rin? nakaya kong maghintay, pero sila hindi.

at ang nakakagago pa jan sa huli, ikaw pa ang lumalabas na inuuna ang ibang bagay kesa sa mga yon.

isang hirit na lang. pakitandaan: hindi lahat ng bagay nakukuha sa sori. pu****i**ng sori yan. kahit pa sibihin nating hindi natin ginusto ang mga nangyayari satin... pasensya ka na rin, ito ang pakiramdam ko sayo ngayon. minsan ko lang ibubulgar sa buhay kong literal at malalim akong nasasaktan. isa na to sa mga yon. wag mo muna ko siguro kausapin... hayaan mo, mawawala din to. mabilis lang.

minsan kelangan ko rin ng break sa pagiging maunawain...

...kagaya ngayon.

haaaaaaaay....

hmm... parang nabawasan ang pagka-adik ko... hindi na ko masyado net ngayon kasi kelangan masanay... hay.. d ko alam... parang me gusto akong tiisin, gusto ko itry ang pakiramdam ng nagiging matiising tao, at nagiging masaya dahil matiisin siya. ayaw mo ba nun... para isang araw mararamdaman mo nalang ang mga ngiting tamis ng tagumpay...

pasukan na naman... hay nako. bugoy getting to slow down... yebah.

na-hype sa emotional sickness

me mga napagsama-sama akong mga kadramahan dito... la lang. la lang talaga... ^___^

Boy: I need some1 to talk to...
Girl: I'm always here for you.
Boy: I know.
Girl: What's wrong?
Boy: I like her so much...
Girl: talk to her.
Boy: I don't know. She wont ever like me.
Girl: don't say that. You're amazing!
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel...
Girl: then tell her!
Boy: she wont like me!
Girl: how do u know that?
Boy: I can just tell....
Girl: well just tell her!
Boy: what should I say?
Girl: tell her how much you like her.
Boy: I tell her that daily...
Girl: what do u mean?!
Boy: I'm always with her. I love her...
Girl: i know how u feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never like me...
Boy: wait. Who do u like?
Girl: oh some boy....
Boy: oh... she wont like me either...
Girl: she does.
Boy: how do u know..?
Girl: because who wouldn't like you?
Boy:... you.
Girl: you're wrong. I love you...
Boy: I love u too...
Girl: so are u going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did...

--galing ke memey. nasa bulletin daw nya e. natuwa lang ako. haha.

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may dalawang taong nagkukwentuhan sa eksena. ang mas matanda ay nagkwento ng isang 'di nya malilimutang talinhaga.

nag-imbita ang hari ng mga naggagandahang prinsesa sa kanyang palasyo. habang papunta, ang pinakamagandang prinsesa ay dumaan sa harap ng kawal. napa-isip ang kawal at sinabi sa kanya na kahit kailan hindi niya maabot ang tulad niyang tila langit dahil siya naman ay lupa. ganun pa man, sinabi nyang walang halaga ang mabuhay kung wala sya. ang prinsesa ay natuwa, kaya naman hinamon niya ang prinsipe na kung kaya nyang magtagal sa ibaba ng balkonahe ng isang daang araw ay pakakasal sya rito. tinanggap ng prinsipe ang alok ng magandang prinsesa, kaya naman dumating ang isa, lima, sampung araw, nanatili siyang nakaupo sa ibaba ng balkonahe habang pinagmamasdan siya ng prinsesa. umaraw man o umulan hindi siya umalis, kahit iputan na ang ulo niya ng mga ibon at kagatin ng bubuyog, masugid niya itong hinintay. ang mga gabi niya'y puno ng pagluha, pagtitiis para lamang sa kanyang minamahal.

hanggang sa dumating ang ika-99 na gabi. nanatili syang nakaupo roon, ngunit nakadungaw pa rin ang prinsesa sa kanyang balkonahe. nang gabing iyon napagpasyahan na ng kawal na bitbitin na ang kanyang upuan at lungkot na umalis sa kanyang kinalalagyan.

kung bakit sa huling sandali ng paghihintay niya naisipang sumuko, doon tinapos ng matanda ang kanyang kwento.


nagtanong ang mas nakababata sa kanyang kaibigan makalipas ang ilang araw. "ngayon naiintindihan ko na kung bakit umalis ang kawal sa bandang huli..."

"bakit?" lungkot na sabi ng matanda.

"sa lahat ng dinanas na pagtitiis at paghihirap ng kawal, sa ika-99 na gabi naisip nya na kung hindi tumupad sa usapan ang magandang prinsesa, pakiramdam niya mas lalo lamang siyang masasaktan.

"minabuti na lamang niyang itigil ang pag-asang kahit naman kailan hindi niya makakamit sa buong buhay niya. kaya sa halip na tanggapin ang katotohanang hindi niya maaaring ikaila, mas ninais nalang niyang masaktan ng pisikal, magutom hanggang sumuko't lumisan sa pag-ibig na walang kalaban-laban."

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this story was taken from the koreanovela - Stained Glass... so the story was translated in filipino. astig naman e. not in exact words, but that's it. and i won't deny, naiyak ako upon watching and hearing it.

meow-ic experience!! weeeee!!

journal, i was so annoyed a while ago! eh stupid din naman kasi ako, sabi ko na kahapon upon enrollment i would avail another pair of uniform and another blouse! damn, eh di sana hindi ako mapupurgang mag-antay til the classes starts. kulang na kasi pera ko pangdown.

so, all of my journey to school was a total waste. sa sobrang inis ko, i head myself to an internet cafè i knew and play RO. yah, my friend jomar asked me a favor if i could tank his merchant using my knight. eh nag-enroll nga rin pala sya kanina, the sad part is hindi ko sya nakita sa school. eh di sana sabay kami umuwi... oh well...

sa laro, i waited for jomar. he texted me that he'll eat lunch first. ok. then i saw guildmates rich and daryl online. akala ko mga bot, i asked them. and to my surprise they replied. haha, i was using pEaRL_dRagoN then... tas check ko muna ung dancer. there in the guild i saw albert's bard online too... haha, mapuans' free time! sumama ako sa adventure nila. before we are only four from the party--I, using my acolyte (i used bes pao's account), albert's bard, daryl's acolyte too and rich's archer. GH kami. mga ilang minutes (or hour) pa, bert invited some players na nasa gh din. dumami kami. rich used eman's priestess kasi mas kelangan. then after that, i saw carlo's hunter on our party, tas ayun, the fun rises more nung nakita ko nalang dumating na rin sina danix and eman using her (danix) priestess and his (eman) priest, respectively.

wahehe, dami kong dedo points, sitting-gaining-sp points at 'freezing' points sa frost joke ni bert. hilarious! ngayon lng ulit kami nagsama-sama as a team, well, except for others who weren't present: shyla, pao, arthur and kiko... cguro mas todo saya pa kung kasama sila. RO was really the ease for my previous school annoyance. buti nalang may mga mababait akong guildmates. thank you. meow!

ngayon ko masasabi at napatunayan... na nasa mapua institute of technology ang hometown ng mga RO adiks!!! hahahahaha!! yebah mo!

i like this message i got from eman... here it goes...

one day, madness and love decided to play hide and seek. madness decided to be the first to count. as he was counting, love can't decide where to hide... so at the last second, she threw herself at the rosh bush. madness searched but couldn't find love anywhere. so in frustration he thrust a spear into the rose bush. surprised to find blood, he looked further and found love's eyes mixed with blood and tears. he cried and promised love that he'll be her eyes forever. from then on, love was blind, accompanied by madness...

special thanks...

whoa... matatapos na ang 3xp/2xp ng pRO... ipinaaabot ko ang pasasalamat sa mga taong tumulong sakin ng mga panahong yon! chempre sa cmula't cmula pa! mula ng maglaro ako, nawala, at bumalik muli... (naks...) count ko wayback 2003... heto cla...

2003, sa chaos server, kina:

jayvee
jeff
ryan
tina
kay kuya sa shop!
chempre ke bespren pao... (haha, those were the days!)

then i was gone, and back again... 2004, now in fenrir and sarah server, kina:

fenrir:
blockmate paeng >>na B.I. ako nito para bumalik! langya...
chris >> labyu tol! da best ka forever!
sa mga friends ni chris at sa buong guild ng Maelstrom... kay gm, salamat.

sarah:

hs friends:
gm willex (naks, mokong, acknowledge kitang 'gm' a! adik!)
bob
richard q.
jc
arbee
sedric
granny and joma >> mga sources ko nung nag quit ako
bespren pao ulit!
~~~
sa mga euthanasia guildmates ko:
kelvin >>salamat friend.mala-RO or iRL... sa simula't simula pa... salamat tol! dito ko natutunan na wala sa level ang lakas!! waaaahahahaha! wapak!
albert >>bigla sya nawala! pero salamat parin!
pao
niccah
at sa ibang nakalimutan ko... salamat!
~~~
sa mga na- B.I. ko:
kay bespren avon! (sayang! d na natuloy!)
ke bengbeng! ang na B.I. ko sa block namen! pa crux mo na kasi!
sa pamangkin ko... kay jowie... hala. mas adik n yan sakin ngayon!
kay jomar na sa kaadikan lumipat pa sa sarah server! ahahaha!

at chempre...

sa mga taong dahilan kung bakit hindi ako bumibitaw hanggang ngayon... dahil ang rason ay para lang makasama sila...

guild Catz™
thanks to gm gian >>bro ni bert hehehe!
bert >>ang adik kong bunch, hersheys, kuya, lolo... *if i didn't meet him wala ako ngayon, wala ako sa Catz™ wala ng RO sa sistema ko wahahaha!.. thanks! ^__^
eman >>isa pang adik na ka-duet ko sa kasentihan! salamat sa lahat! eto, kami nian nila bert ang orig partymates... september pa!^_^ thanks for not giving up.. aja aja fighting! ^_^
danix >>waaaaaa! miss u girl! T_T thanks!
shyla >>kahit sa real life, isa kang tunay na kaibigan. aylabyu!!
pao >> isa kang adik! at napakabuting kaibigan!! partner in crime! salamat!
carlo >>eto certified talaga! thanks sa company!
arthur >>salamat sa pagsalo sa mga gago kong tanong last time! da best ka!
kiko >>weeeee!! bday nian kanina! (june2) napakabait mo rin sakin! thanks!
cesar >>hehehe! salamat sa laging pag-alala!
rich >>adik! hihihi! mabuhay ka! adik! adik!
daryl >>eto talaga ang gb queen adik! buti nag ragna ka na rin! hahahaha! go girl!

did i miss anyone? pansin ko puro kalalakihan! hahaha! tibo ako! hahahaha!

mga GMs sa ragna! cge sasali ko n rin!

sa mga nagregalo sakin nung birthday ko! ui di ko pa un nakakalimutan no.. ambabaet nio!

sa mga hindi ko pa nabanggit, ieedit ko to ng ieedit hanggang maging kumpleto kayo sa RO life ko! salamat sa inyong lahat! at sa mga mami-meet ko pa... mag-aral muna tayo! hahaha! sana .... sana magtagal ako! \m/

wee... para akong nagpapaalam... =s

baket ganon ang laki ng installment!!!!!!!!

i got soaked in the heavy rain last night and i felt i can't stand being in front of the pc... and also, i was thinking to wake up early the following day that's why I slept early... anyways...

what had happened today was really tiring. today was our sked for enrollment. before i headed for school, daan muna ko kina denis. he borrowed kasi the hale cd i also borrowd from my blockmate beng. on my way, habang nasa jeep, me sumakay na lalake and sat opposite mine. nakakagago talaga, kasi sukat ba namang nakahawak sya sa edge ng shirt nia, pero hindi e. nakhawak talaga malapit sa "ano" nia! the girl beside him, who sat opposite to me too suddenly sat beside me--alas! dun ako tinamaan ng kaba... minamanyak na ata ng gagong yun ang kabaro ko... (do i have to tell this?) i felt a sudden discomfort as i thought to myself, (AT SOBRANG NAPARANOID NA KO!!) gulay, v-neck bra nga pala suot ko! syetmanaks, God is good, buti malapit na ko bumaba... hell; if by chance i caught him staring my front, swear, lintik lang walang ganti...


i successfully arrived, and auntie cely doesn't want to leave their house without me taking any food in my stomach, kaya nagtagal ako dun ng about half an hour. eh mga blockmates ko naghihintay sakin... so kinuha ko na yung pakay ko and left as fast as i could be.

i arrived at school mga 12noon na. kala ko pede na enrol ang arki. but they said, 2pm pa talaga.. edi hintay pa kami... then i suddenly thought and asked them kung magkano installment. a whooping 20,200.00phP! installment pa lang yon!!!! juice me... eh 19,500.oophP lang meron ako... kht isama ko pa pamasaheng 14.50 natitira, wla na! buti me atm c kring, kya pinautang nya ko ng 1thou...

gulo ng sked ko.. me araw na uwi ko 4pm, then the following day 6pm... then 5... hay... i chose table tennis to be my pe for the sem. sa assesment, i found out na 19,900 nalang ang babayaran ko. man, i was total crazy.... buti napakabait ng mga kaibigan ko at pinautang ako... hirap talaga...........


gulay, hindi tinatae ang pera ngayon... kya todo aral... para rin sakin to..


pak.